Jealousy

I think one of the hardest things, by far, in being a single mom is dealing with jealousy. Not dealing with an immature jackass, not spending a weekend without my son, but being jealous of everyone else who has a "complete" family. All my life I dreamed of finding the perfect man (check), having the most beautiful wedding (check), having a beautiful baby (check), and living happily ever after (FAIL). And as soon as I realize that the latter was a failure, all I have around me are all of these stinking happy families. I can't even go to the mall and see two parents walking around with their children without my blood starting to boil. What did they do right that I didn't? What did I do to deserve having my dreams shattered? I tried as hard as I could to be a good wife only to have it thrown back in my face. I may have been a bit of a nag, but what woman isn't? All I asked for was a happy family. That was it. I didn't ask for extravagant things, fancy jewelry, the nicer car...I didn't hate on his family. I honestly feel like I did everything right. And I am so freaking jealous of everyone who has the life that I want right now.